This is not how it is supposed to feel.

Is it?

I mean, bleary-eyed, bone tired, can hardly move and everything aches.  I get it, if you have a newborn (they can be kind of inconsiderate).

But a two year old?  One that is almost two and a half?  Is she supposed to wake up a ton and then spend a couple hours climbing all over you, laughing and singing, gleefully declaring "Dere's mommy!", alternating with piteous moans and wails when she is in her crib and not right beside me?

I get it, those molars STINK.  And its the LAST one.  And now you seem to have a cold, which is making it hard to breathe.  And you are apparently another one of those high need babies/spirited kids, which has never really been a great sleeper from the get go.

But. BUT. Mommy needs more than an hour here and there.  As you know, you also share a room with your brother currently due to space constraints.  So when you are raising hell/partying like a rock star for a significant amount of time...we have to move him.  Into our bed.  And then one of us (likely me), has to sleep on his bed in your room.  Sleep should be in airquotes of the most sarcastic variety.  Because this kind of behavior is causing insomnia for all of us (especially me.  and you.  YOU AND ME, BABY).

These are supposed to be the times I will miss.  Well, guess what?  You're not making that easy.  When you sleep decently (not fabulous, but I will take decent any old day), I start to get cocky and think our days of this kind of nonsense are coming to a close.  (And I also like you 1000% better the next day too!)  Well, looks like the joke is on me!

I hope not for long.  We have company coming tomorrow night and I will be in your room for three nights whether we all like or not.  I've been stressing about that all week, what with this still going on.

So, newsflash, Ava Mae, you are fantastic and I love you to pieces.  But I'm gonna need a little (lot) more sleep to be able to adequately express that.  Help me help you.

Love,

Mommy

Hodge Podge

Still trying to gain access to my old blog...apparently I had used two different emails to post to it, and they were both emails I have long since abandoned.  I finally gained access to one, but the main one is still in limbo and I'm waiting to hear back as to whether I provided enough correct info about it to gain access to the blog.  Fingers crossed!  I will be SO sad if its lost to me forever!

Meanwhile, my first wakeful "baby" who is almost nine (!!) is having a friend stay overnight for the first time.  He's been to this friend's house overnight a couple times, but his friend hasn't stayed here until tonight.  They've had so much fun and are finally snoozing away.  The second wakeful baby has already woken up a couple times due to teething, while I've been sitting here troubleshooting for the last few hours.  Hoping for a better night from here on out so I can be semi-functional tomorrow!

That's all for now, because I am EXHAUSTED, hence the brevity of this post.

G'night!

Happy New Year!

It's been a while since I left the blogging life, for many reasons, none good enough...and now seems like a perfect time to return. New Year, new start right? I plan on using this space as a continuation of my previous blog, The Wakeful Baby, and once I am able to regain access to all of that I will move it over. I had to start a new one since it has been so long I have forgotten the access info!

I'd been planning (for the last two years!  I knooooooow.) to change it's name to "The Wakeful Babies", and continue on from there, since in my looooooong hiatus, I had another (wakeful!) baby...cause that's how I do! She is now almost two years and five months, and currently STILL wakeful due to cutting her last (hoorah!!!) two year molar. I can't WAIT to be done with the teething stage! I keep joking about throwing a party after that!  With lots of champagne.  ALL the champagne.  With the tiny bubbles.

Anyhow, I'll probably talk a lot about my kids, but also about a lot of other random things too, so I didn't want the title to be too reductionistic.  And also because our life is crazy beautiful and I need to remember that.  LIFE is crazy and beautiful, and sometimes, as a good friend says, brutiful, even.  It just IS.  Everything.  All of it.  SO MUCH.

I know it's cliche to make New Year's resolutions which will be likely broken by February, so I'm just going to say Happy New Year, and call this a return to my love of writing, no resolutions whatsoever, except to do the things that bring me joy.  So, here I go.

Stay tuned!